PUMPKINS, PUMPKINS, PUMPKINS everywhere and I love it!! The round, orange, plant is the ultimate symbol of fall, and again, I LOVE IT.
This time of year you see all sorts of people trying to get the artsy pictures with the fall foliage (me- guilty) or coming up with the most creative costume to gain the most compliments.
*some of my favorites have been Cardi B and Offset, Camila Cabello and Havana, or Pete Davidson and Ariana Grande… y’all know I love good celebrity humor*
After being in Texas for four years, I don't really know how to explain it, but its been like I an noticing fall all over again. In Texas, it felt like things went from Summer to Winter in the course of a day, but being back in Arkansas I have felt it get cooler & I’ve watched the leaves turn colors day after day. It is like I totally forgot about fall.
As a result of my rekindled love for all things Autumn, I wanted to get in the spirit. The last time I visited a pumpkin patch was in the like the 2nd grade. Gosh, those were such fun memories from my childhood. I decided I wanted to go back to a pumpkin patch after all these years. Who better to do that with than my best friend since birth (I am sure there is a picture of the two of us from grade school at the pumpkin patch somewhere), Stephanie Bell? So, Steph, our friend Callie, and I went to the patch this past weekend and it was so cool to see again. I will admit, not as exciting as being a little boy and not having a care in the world, or worrying about how muddy your shoes are getting. However, I am so glad we went!
It just felt like pure fall there. The hayride, all the pumpkins, the corn maze, and the petting zoo + great weather all made for a fun day at BoBrook Farms. I highly recommend!
*see cheesy and basic pics we took because that is what you have to do at the pumpkin patch*
It just so happened, the following day at church my pastor brought out pumpkins and did this really cool analogy that I had kind of been thinking / feeling in my head. So I am kind of stealing from his sermon, but also kind of not! God was already trying to teach me this little analogy.
I feel like right now, in my life, I am letting God carve my pumpkin. When we buy pumpkins to carve and take part in the old tradition, the first thing we do is take all the yucky stuff on the inside, out… then we carve it. It is so important to also ask God to do the same with our own self. We should ask him to take out all the junk. To get rid of the greed, selfishness, envy, bad-mouthing, negativity, etc. Once he does that, our light is really able to truly shine. Just like how the light shines from within the pumpkin after it has been carved and designed perfectly. Therefore, all throughout this fall season, I am going to ask God to carve me just like we carve pumpkins. Oh, and I am going to be thankful for it!
Happy Halloween! Happy pumpkin carving season, both literally and figuratively! Let us all give thanks!
Southern and Thankful
I just have to vent for a second because venting is healthy right? I am not even going to try and sugarcoat things on this one. To put it quite simply: I have been very frustrated with God lately.
Not in an “I’ve given up on him or don’t believe in this plan anymore”. Actually, I have more faith in him currently than I have had in a long time. However, having faith takes a lot of patience, which is something I seem to be running out of at the moment.
I feel a lot of things these days... To sum it up nicely, I feel: stuck. You see, I am not complaining about my life right now. I am working in Little Rock. I have a home (it’s different depending on the day, but a home nonetheless), I have food, I am making money, etc. I have the things I need, but none of this is what I thought my life would look like at the age of 23.
Growing up, I cannot remember one person I looked up to career wise. I had many great role models with excellent values that taught me many things and made me the man I am today. However, to this day I can’t place my finger on one person I know that I want to be like career wise. My therapist and I (yeah I have one… better question is why don’t you??) came to the conclusion that it was one of the reasons I wanted to go out of state for college. I wanted to see that the dreams I was so intrigued by were possible for a boy like me from a small town in Arkansas.
*at this point if you think I am crazy for thinking this way or that I am being unrealistic… stop reading. I don’t want that negative energy*
You can imagine my surprise when God placed me right back in Arkansas. Again, not mad about that one bit, but I am not going to lie...it has been challenging for me in ways I can’t even begin to fully explain. God and I have been having a lot of serious talks and I understand I am back in Arkansas to prove myself and others wrong. I can accomplish my dreams being from this wonderful state and I will, because I want to be that role model that I never really had all these years.
I consider myself a creative person and I have 1,000 ideas in my head at all times, but I have never really been quite sure how to accomplish them. Besides hard work, I don’t have the connections or people to learn from. Again, I feel stuck.
Last night my mind was racing, and I had a memory come up. One time, when I was little, I got stuck in this muddy water while hunting in the middle of winter. I fell down in the water and could not get up on my own. I was also frozen solid because...duck hunting in the winter. Anyway, I remember being scared, but also being plain mad. That feeling is very similar to how I feel right now in my life. Of course, back then, someone quickly came and helped me up. I know the same thing will happen to me this go round, but the waiting and the overthinking is a lot.
I want to write a book. I am writing a book. I want to write songs. I want to write TV shows or movies. I want to do anything where I can use my storytelling skills. My ideas rotate and change every day, but at the core of it, I want to be a positive influence. I want to inspire others. Funny thing, I can feel it coming. Like a train head on. I know that with all my heart. Therefore, right now I am thankful to be stuck because everything that is jammed always finds its way loose. Watch out because as soon as I wiggle my way out of this, I’m gonna be THAT guy that other young ones from our small town (and state) can look up to for inspiration!! If you are stuck, be grateful! I know that means something good is coming so soon!
Southern and Thankful
Blessed is an understatement when it comes to my life. Each and every day I am amazed by God's steadfast love. In return, I have claimed this space to show my thanks and whatever else comes along the way. A recent graduate from Texas Christian University who loves any creative insta post, all donuts, and dress pants that make you do a double take. I pray God has a grand purpose for me and I plan to get there with a little Southern and a lot of Thanks! Join me!